Still Standing

I'm feeling like I'm going to crumble at any given moment. Just frustrated and on edge and feeling like I'm going to break when I can't be broken, there is too much going on to be broken. Trips and moving and dealing with postal bureaucracies and dealing with people who cannot read and write. And dumb questions and the lack of thoughtfulness. 

It will be okay. But I will miss my friends and my nephew who will be three tomorrow. I wish I could celebrate at home, with them, and not alone.

Travel Fatigue

I haven't even left for CA left and I'm tired.

This is trip #3 to California this year. Then it's a litany of trips, including New Orleans, NY, NY, Detroit, Chicago, Phoenix, possibly LA, and northern California. I'm tired just thinking about it. I'd rather stay home, getting moving behind me, and rest.

Or take a real vacation like my brother. Go to Europe, or Mexico, or Hawaii, or anywhere in the Caribbean.  No computers. No emails. No noisy neighbors. No headaches.

I'm tired of work travel. But there's no way out of it, is there?  I guess babies are a way out, but I'm not thinking that will happen soon. I'm 35 and without a plan.

The day started out well, with free Starbucks and King Cake. It is Mardi Gras, or Paczki Day, after all. But I'm feeling tired and bummed and my eye is still fuzzy. It's been a long one.

So tired...

I am just exhausted lately. I wake up tired even if I sleep. I am too tired to run. I am exhausted at the concept of flying across country tomorrow, driving two hours to Napa, and then staying awake til at least midnight, after waking up at 4am. I love Napa, don't get me wrong. But I am tired. So tired. I just want to get on a plane and fly away to a quiet, deserted island, and have someone bring me margaritas or glasses of riesling and cheese and fruit until I fall asleep, blissfully and totally asleep.

I can dream...

I'm Tired

Didn't sleep well last night. It's warm in here, and I'm tired. And our office water tastes like fluoride. Ugh.

It is hard to muster up much anything interesting. I would kill for some chippies right now. I would l love something salty.

I just want to go home.